Hello everyone. I dont wish to bore you all, but I have a story I would like to share, maybe recieve some good advice.
Recently, my girlfriend of almost two years visited me and told me that it was over. A bombshell that came from nowhere that was. She said that she fell out of love with me and it was happening over the last month. There were no signs at all. I spent most of my time with her and everything was the same as always: a beautiful loving relationship that touched our souls.
Even a few days beforehand, she spoke of how much she wanted any future kids of ours to look like me!.
I was never abusive, always complimented her, I was in love terms the perfect partner. However there were a few personal issues with me.
Over the last couple of months, Ive become insular, a very guarded person. Im a paranoid person, but its got worse recently as well. There has been no get up and go in me. I have neglected all my friends, and outwith work my partner was the only person I spent time with.
I think back now, I wonder if we were drunk in love and suffocated each other?
At the moment, we have spoken again, and decided that we should take a break for a month or two. Meet up again and see if things could be restarted. She is not promising anything though. Im so hurt perhaps I cant promise anything either when we do meet up again.
This summer has not been good for us. She recently had a few health problems and I was struggling to find work as well. But we supported each other as much as we could.
Obviously, I believe this girl is the one i want to settle down with, have fun with, and grow old with. I look at the positives of our magical relationship that we had, and perhaps a break would be the best way. I can sort out my problems, live a little again without her, and return a better, stronger person.
I would like to spend a day with her,and show her that I have changed, not for her but for ME. And maybe we could enjoy that day, and take things slowly, this time. As I know what I have to do to better things in the future.
What do you folks think?
Thanks for reading