was she hinting at interest ir was it small talk?

[Tone]

Who doesn't?

The important thing is you realize some things are more important than those little fears. Like, talking to a pretty girl who gives off signs she's interested.

You're cool in my book dude. There's a few people on this board I could see myself chillin with, and you're one!

[Junsui]

Yeah, as far as I can see you have no reason to have low self esteem.

[Late_vamp]

Yeah, as far as I can see you have no reason to have low self esteem.

i blame it on my childhood , ever since i was a kid (about 4 y old) , everybody used to say that i talk to much , me being the youngest of 5 , i shut my mouth and i stopped talking ... i became very shy and kinda anti-social at some point in my early teen years . about 2 years ago i really came outta my shell , and even tho its hard for me to do this even to this day , i still do it because deep inside , im not a anti-social quiet and stupid person .

i'm the kind of guy that doesnt talk that much in general , all off my talk is made inside my head (my family told me SOO many times that i should shut up when i was younger , that i ended up doing that and closing myself for years) , im shy in the beginning and once i get to know the person i start to talk ...alot .

since ppl see that im quiet , they think that i dont have an opinion and that im too slow or stupid , but then they mention a strong argument , when i speak , most ppl just shut their mouths because they know i dont talk often , then when im done , they usually keep their mouth shuts because they cant contradict me .

(in the net im different tho ) why? i got used to it , before i was even shy to post on the net , my 1st forum took me a year before i posted a message .

[Junsui]

Awwww...yeah most of our insecurities should come from childhood. At least you're opening up now, I can understand being shy, I'm the same way.

[Asip4u]

Yea, Lv is a good guy...A lot of us are shy at first too so don't worry dude, we can relate.

[Late_vamp]

i re-edited my last post , i will put what i added there , here ...because ppl replied to the older post

also about my looks , i'v had LOTS of girls tell me i look good , this and that , sexy this , wtv... i get compliments even from some of my guy friends (no their not gay , they just say things like " im not ashamed of approaching girls with you cuz u got good looks dude" ...but i dont really accept these compliments , i know im not ugly but i dont know if im truly attractive . why ? also because of my family , me always being picked on because i was the youngest , yet i never cracked like they did . because the more punishment you get , the stronger you will be later on .

i have girls telling me they want to date me , they stare at me , they send me signals , i know their doing that but i dont believe it . i dont because i have always been put down ever since i was a kid ... not because i used to be ugly , just because i was helpless and couldnt fight back , i was too young . altho iv always been tough , (iv been fighting since i was 4 ... yea street fights at 4 , i made my 5 y old neighboor bleed) .
iv had girls offer themselves at me , litterally "**** me " kind of things , but i never took it because i thought they were just playing with me and that i wasnt good enough . iv had girls , not like 1 or 2 , like a dozen of girls at the same time complimenting me , yet i never took it at heart . i always thought it was BS and i still think that sometimes... i was voted hottest guy in each class since 7th grade . always took 1st place (during all of HS ) . but i still feel they were just being nice . but my brain is telling me that they were sincere (come on , all those years and i just win from luck ... no way) .

i know i have problems ... my parents even sent me to a psychologist , turns out i have a way better intellect than the average . i blame my family .

ohh , i forgot to add , my psychologist said i was perfectly normal , i just think i got insecurity problems.