Very courageous stuff, there, Independent. Many a hard row to hoe, therein. But, I assure you, the virtue of being totally transparent in all things far, far and away, outweighs the price of anguish getting there sometimes exacts. Stick around a while longer. Some here are sincerly interested in helping others move things out of shadow into light and pulling other hidden rabbits out of deeply buried hats. As is the case in any affiliation, the more each one of us discovers, the more we all come to understand.