My girlfriend and I had been going out for 5 yrs 4 months. Ever since we were freshmen in high school till now i'm already 20.
And I have been the one guiding the relationship all these years, I had bad temper. I yell at her, sometimes in front of other people.
But all that has is gone, maybe not completely gone but I have been very good to her. We drove down L.A for a vacation, (away from sf city) I did it for her, because I think she deserved a break. But I also realized that she sees that I get stressed from work and school, and that she wants me to get away as well. Well we went there, had a blast. We got so much closer...
About a week ago, she went out without asking me if she could go or anything, she just went. She went out with her friends to drink, she drove too. Well I couldn't reach her the whole time, i waited for her call till 5am. I woke up at around 9am to call her and she picks up. Her excuse for not calling me was taht she was afraid I was going to yell at her. But i didn't. I haven't. Anyway, i just let it go because she slept over a girl friend's house. Well i took her out to eat and went back to my place. She left after awhile saying she needs to go home and take a shower and get ready for another friend birthday party that night. THen i told her taht she can go, because my friend and his girlfirned was going to be there. So i said ok. I went out with my friend to shoot pool and got a call from her around 9pm she said she didn't even have money for drinks, and that she only has those fruity alcohol drinks taht my friend got her. I said okay and told her to have fun.
My friend called me and told me he was leaving. I tried callign my gf to tell her i'll meet her up or something; she didn't pick up. Same thing happens. And she sleeps over this friend's house. I wait for her till 5-6am in the morning, in the morning i got a number from my gf's sister and called it. I finally got ahold of her. She was awake, i heard laughter in the back. Again i didn't yell at her, i just let her know that i all i wanted was a call from her to let me know she was okay. I eventually told her to think about what she did and call me back when she has. I never got a call and soon later taht day i start hearing from her friends that she needs a break, and all this stuff that i'm yelling at her and stuff. I'm like... what in the hell is going on? I talked to my friends and her friends and got a lot of views and advice I realized that even though what she did wasn't right; what i had done to her over time was bad too, i realize that and i know that she doesn't deserve it. I sucked it up and bought her some flowers.
second day made her a custom card with nice picture of us and a poem i wrote.
third day i made her a cd of all the songs taht she likes and some of our fav songs. Shes still pushing me away, shes cluttering all the bad things i've done in the past and filtering all the good things i did and happened. Last night i got her friend to get her to go out and have some drinks, I went along too and i tried so hard to let her know how sincere i am that i'll change and that i see everything ever so clearly. she said she gave me too many chances...I pulled her outside and gave her 143 roses (143= i love you). And tried to really get my words to her, because the whole time she just blocks my words out. she stands there but shes not listening so I'm tried really hard to do that. She started to get mad, so i left her alone and left. I found out that some guy likes her from her friend. i dont' know what to do. I tried to let her have her space
have her time. Then this happens...Earlier today she came by and picked up the 143 roses that she left behind. She said that she wanted to pick them up because i bought them for her. I don't know what to do....I love her... so much...I care for her...... so dearly....What to do....?