Right I need some advice. I've been officially dating my boyfriend for 8 months but we'd been best friends for 2 years before that and we both agree we were really going out we were just too shy to admit it. I'm 19 and he's 18, he's had 2 girls before but I've never really had sex before except for a bad experience a few years ago that wasn't exactly consentual. At the start of the year he spoke about us having sex cos he feels ready and i felt ok with that so we tried the other day and it hurt so bad he couldn't get all the way in and I was crying my eyes out, he stopped the minute he saw it was sore for me and we just had lots of kisses instead. He was on top of me, he wanted me to be on top of him but I didn't like the idea cos I'm a very huggy person and it just felt too distant from him.
Now I'm scared to try it again, we used tonnes of lube, we'd been "playing around" for a good hour beforehand and I was soaking wet and very aroused, I don't understand how it hurt so bad, should it have been as sore, should I just have let him keep going and got it over with? I don't feel comfortable with trying it again but I really love him and want to share this special experience with him, I know if I say no that will be the end of it and he wont approach the subject again but I want to do this I'm just terrified of it hurting like that again.
Flutterby