i'm such an ass...

[PandaCivic]

...i had class this evening and i had it all planned out...well i guess that's where i went wrong. i shouldn't plan anything, i should just go with what happens. but anyways, i was planning on going over some study notes with "that girl" in my class after lecture, i was all prepared and everything, i was going to ask if she could study with me for a little bit, but anyways the teacher threw a curve ball and said he had our quizzes from the previous time, the dumbass that i am, i went to pick up my quiz, and then i walked out, and i waited for her, but i guess she didn't pick up hers. i was like, , so everything is all shot to hell now. this time i actually wanted to ask her for something meaningful because we have a midterm coming up. but i guess i took forever to get my quiz, and she was gone this was my chance too! man, my posts are so depressing...

[Pretender]

PandaCivic you're cute. You remind me of a friend of mine who is a hopeless romantic. You'll have plenty of other chances to ask her to "study" . You should relax and be yourself and not get so nervous and worry about blowing your only chance. Just ask her next time and go with the flow.

[PandaCivic]

ha ha! thanks for the compliment...
i told ya'll i was hopeless. hey Pretender, how does your friend handle it? you know what's so weird? i'm not even nervous around her, in a sense, i can approach her and i can talk to her about just anything that comes to mind, but that's the easy part because i do that all day long to people at work, i say hi and smile like i farted all day. they always ask me why i'm smiling and i just say "cuz i'm talkin' to you". and they roll their eyes, the weird thing is that for some reason, when i get this gut feeling that i like someone, my "hopeless" personality takes over and i just get stupid in the head. i can never mix my "self" personality with the personality i have towards girls i like. if that makes any sense, i should be named hopeless romantic at birth.

[Pretender]

Well, Unfortunately Panda Civic he doesn't handle it all to well (when something bad happens). He let's it get to him and focuses on the negative sides of things to a point where you want to strangle him. But once he finds a girl who will treat him right he is the happiest man on the earth. I'm jealous I must say.

[PandaCivic]

why jealous? i just hate that part where feeling miserable is a given. it's hard for me to get over someone cuz i try so hard to get what i want...

[earlydecember]

hey dude, your right, you shouldn't plan anything, just take your time and wait for your chance and like you said your normal around this girl, just don't get worried about it, i know from experience worrying dosnt help, just be cool!

[peshkunta]

Hey,

Just don't have expectations. When you set your self up for something and it doesn't happen you get disappointed. It's almost like setting an invisible/subconscious bar in your mind - when you set it at a certain level (by expecting) and it("it" being whatever you are expecting) doesn't happen it feels like you've failed and therefore you feel bad. Do you get what I'm saying?

[PandaCivic]

completely understand...i'll try to NOT expect anything. just someone to talk to...

[cheese_sausage]

hey, i'm the most hopeless here. panda, don't take my spot.

right, go meet more girls and just let the course of nature goes!!

[PandaCivic]

sounds depressing just to think i've failed on someone i actually want...

[sfalexi]

sounds depressing just to think i've failed on someone i actually want

You haven't failed yet. You just missed one opportunity. That's not "failure".

[PandaCivic]

i need some time to breath i guess, i more i see her, the more i think i'm losing this whole "chase". she's cool to talk to and all but dang, i'm stressing over my own shit...we're having a midterm today and i think i'm just gonna take the weekend to clear my head. i'm sprung like a mo fo!