Originally Posted by
Jeblina
You've got me all wrong....I can only speak for myself.....and I KNOW that I'm no longer an addict. It's a part of my past that I've dealt with and learned from...I never want to be there again, and I won't ever be there again.
My boyfriend....fine...he's a RECOVERING addict....does that suit you better? Like I said...I can only speak for myself...all I know is what I see, and what he tells me. I guess his situation is probably different from mine....his was a physical addiction....mine was purely mental...I had no physical addiction to the drugs I was taking....I was only taking them to not deal with the more difficult parts of my life....I've learned HOW to deal with difficult things now, and feel no need to self-medicate.
I'm no "miracle case" as you say....I just know that I'm no longer an addict.
Not to just jump in here but I have to say a few things. I myself, am an addict even though I have been clean and sober for 7 years. Just becasue I don't get the urges anymore or because I don't use.....does not mean I'm no longer an addict. Addicts aren't called addicts just becasue they use at that time, even after your clean your branded an addict becasue you WERE addicted at one time or another to something you didn't know how or want to control.
And all drug users have used drugs to cover from or hide from situations in their life that's what an addict is my dear!
But back to the main point, yes you guys lust each other...but have you thought maybe the lust is there becasue you guys have this addicting personality and are now addicted to one another instead of a drug? It happens all the time. Look at it closely, how many times have you gone back to this guy despite what he has done? Your enabling him and vice versa.
Just becasue your not doing drugs anymore doesn't mean you can't be addicted to something else......HIM! and while you may think you are making better decisions now, it sounds like your still falling on some the ways you had before. I don't say this to offend you but to try and open your eyes to the severe consequences this can have on you and more importantly your child!
If you can't handle the thorns, don't crave the rose!!