I love a girl since an year. She's my everything. My world revolves around her. There is not a day in this 1 year i havent talked with her. There is not a moment I haven't thought about her. I love her, care for her, and am there for her always.
But we're just friends. Closest of friends. She won't accept me. Because she loves someone else. Her ex boyfriend. She's obsessed about him. Her stories long, but to sum it up, he ditched her, hurt her many times and she still went back to him, to get hurt again and again, she's built a house just next to his now, but he's moved on, she cant get him no matter what she does. She shares her pain and despair with me. Its been 8 months since their seperation. She talks about him all the time, but I've learnt to love a person who loves someone else, I've learnt to ignore my pain and support her, I've forgotten all about my love n my need and have helped her get him back many times! But its all ****ed up. He's moved on. She sees him with another girl. She's seen him kiss her. Its a long story. A lot has happened. She misses him a lot day and night. She's a poet. Her poems are beautiful. She just cant forget him, just cant move on. She's obsessed. He is her everything and that is what she tells me. I've expressed my love for her many times, but its too risky, messes up everything, our friendship, i dont want to loose that and neither does she! She loves me as a friend, knows well how much I love her now, but tells me not to let the bubble burst and not spoil this beautiful friendship. Its too ****ed up for me.
To add to it all, she's terminally ill. She's got cancer, since before i know her, but she didnt know about until recently, brain cancer, the worst, got it operated once, but its come back. Its become too serious now. Docs say she doesnt have much time. 3-4 years to the max with proper treatment. She's loosing her senses now. She cant see with her left eye, and can hear from her left ear... :'( :'(.... the cancer's spreading to her lungs now.. she has asthma attacks... its dreadful... i'm loosing my angel.. i've had nights full of fear and misery... im too scared.. i feel to helpless.. i feel frustrated even more bcoz... as it is i cant stop her from dying... but i dunno what I can do to help her live, make her life happier, make the last journey of her life perfect, i dunno what to do within the limits of friendship.....
Please help me. I'm lost. My heart is full of misery, her's even more. I'm just 18 and she's 19 and she's going through so much, lost her love and now loosing her life...... please help us... give me some good advice on what i should be doing...