Come on, Matthias!!! I need to hear the rest. What did you say to this girl? to her parents? what happened with your gf?
Sorry, it's been a pretty awful couple of days for me.
I'll continue the story later today.
Not a problem. Part of the healing process. I had a good first month, and I think this upcoming month is going to be awful (mainly denial for that month, now anger/depression). I'll be fine. Again, I know I'm better off this way, so I know that everything else is just part of me growing past this.
Let's see...maybe continuing the story will help me get through today:
Mathias' Great Adventure: Part 5!
So, after I pick my jaw off the floor, her parents say, "Let's all go to Applebees!"
Yippee. Sadly, I am a pretty charming guy, and her parents come away from the dinner and absolutely love me. Plus hey, I got a free dinner out of the deal, so things were good...for now.
We get back to her dorm, she says goodbye to her parents, then kisses me, saying, "You're amazing...I love you so much!"
Yipe.
Finally, the instinct to back away takes over. I say, "Don't you think we're taking this a little fast?"
She freaks out a little. "Yeah, but I can't help the way I feel!" She starts crying, and I go over to comfort her.
Of course, comforting her leads to a little more, and I end up sleeping with her.
So, this basically goes on for the next couple of weeks. I live a lie, and I have two girlfriends at the same time. I feel guilty as hell, but it's almost like an addiction...I can't stop.
Then, I'm scheduled to go to Austin. My best friend has gotten tickets to my school's game against his team, and I'm going to stay there, then go back home for a day.
My girlfriend back home is pumped. She gets to see me!
Damn. I have to do something here.
To be continued...
I actually went back to read your stories.
Mathias, if this is your current situation, you need to understand what you're doing by keeping this girl around. She is obviously a very psychologically unhealthy whore who thrives off of dependency off of another human being. This only leads to the fact that she doesn't have her own identity yet and she's parasitically feeding off of you in exchange for some good head.
Not only are you encouraging her lack of "wealth," but you're drowning her deeper and deeper into the pool of blood. Trust me, when she hits the bottom, you're going to be ****ed.
As for your current girlfriend, how do you think she would feel if she found out you were ****ing some chick behind her back? That's right! You're being a slimy cock right now by specifically NOT telling this chick that you want her to take her psychological baggage AWAY from you, and you're doing nothing but living a lie.
Get rid of that ****ing skank and do something with yourself.
Dude, this happened 6 years ago. I used to be a dick.
Holy shit...was it really that long ago? Whoa.
oh god, it gets worse? it's captivating.
Shut Up Tiay!
Yeah. It's by FAR the worst thing I've ever done in my life.
So yeah, I kinda had what happened to me recently coming to me. By the way, this is the FIRST time, ever, that I've told anyone about all this. What better place to do it than in front of the entire world? (if they know where to find it)