Nc - Can"t Do It!!!

[dreamflyer]

a bit of history first...

me and my ex broke up in...october 06. it was only a 3 month relationship, but i could just tell there was more than just a stupid teen relationship going on, it was much more deep and meaningful.
anyway, she is in a very strict family in terms of school and study, and exam time was rolling around very very fast, and it got to the point where it was wayyy to hard with exams, and our search and rescue program and the fact that she was moving south in '07 to study...so i ended it one night.
i regretted it as soon as i had done it.

anyway, i thought that if i gave it time, just like everything else, it would heal over and all would be sweet! sadly - not the case

about 2 weeks before xmas, i txt her saying that i still really love her, and all i want is to have her back, we were great, and even you said this was the best relationship you've had! i got a reply saying that she was leaving for Europe in 2 days for 6 weeks to visit family, and she couldn't see the point in getting back together only to break up again in a month.

i asked who said anything about breaking up? i was/am prepared to fly/drive the few hours every couple of weeks to see her etc, but she said she just can't. "i still have very very strong feelings for you, and if i wasn't moving in a month, then it would work. we'd still be together, but where i am at the moment, i just can't", was the reply i got.

I have not been myself since we broke up, no matter what my mates say to help me move on, it doesn't work! i've had to start saying to them that 'yeah, i'm over her', just so i don't get the lecture that its gone on long enough, MOVE ON ALREADY!

trust me, if i could, i would. i really really would, because this hurts so much, and i'm not into hurting myself.

what do i do.

[Gigabitch]

You have to meet someone else. Someone who is willing to whap you upside the head with a rolled-up newspaper if you so much as mention your ex.