i need some advice please :(

[outoflove]

i m 18 and i ve had about 5 gfs so far.gone out with countless girls on dates(nearly all i didnt have feelings for) thing is i didnt have feelings for any of them, it was just to kill time,see how having a gf was like and also to compete with other friends who were boasting about getting sex etc... anyway i feel like i seriously no luck in getting a girl i really like.i ve liked several girls beginning from 14 yrs up till now but i never ever get them.i got really hurt by this girl i met thru Mirc(dumb i know)i spoke to her on phone a while later and for some stupid lame ass reason i started liking her?only reason i can conjure is that she sounded really sweet so i assumed she wd be sweet looking too.anyway i was with her for 1yr 7months.i never met her in person,she studies in a foreign country and comes back only once every 3 months on avg.i was so hurt and felt manipulated i never really recovered from that.

ok ill type the thing that is really bothering me now,on saturday i went clubbing.i saw this really cute girl but i didnt even think of making moves on her at all its just like i saw her, looked at her for 2-3 secs and looked away.ive seen her on friendster and nothing more.sunday i hit the club(same one) again. i saw her this time but i was feeling a little tipsy when i got to the dance floor. i cant remember how i initiated it but i started dancing behind her and i rmb her asking me whether i was here yesterday,its an obvious question but was just made i guess to break the ice.ok anyway we danced and it got hot thru out the night and nearing the end of it we frenched. really enjoyable kisses.i nvr felt that wa yfor a long time,like u know how sometimes u kiss, u dont feel anything but for her i thoroughly enjoyed it.ok club closed, i sent her back in a cab , walked her to door, kissed her on the lips said goodbye. Fastforward to 3days later(weds) i met her for a movie and it went pretty well overall.end of date i kissed her goodbye. she works 8am to 6 pm on weekdays and she wakes up 5.30 leaves house 7.30, why u may wonder because i been msging her everyday.just a while ago i sent her two messages,saying hey boo what are you doing and hun i miss you its 8 am now and she hasnt replied, i know u think im a prick and a c*nt but she always replies no matter how long she takes she replies!! im being damn paranoid i know but i feel so sad ,that i will lose her.shes like an angel that appeared in my mundane monotonous life. i really want to be with her.

i anticipate alot of flaming for my really bad post but ive only slept 10 hours in 2 days, all the days i know her time has past so slowly....its like someone slowed the clock by half. I never really experience REAL love before,never woken up to to the sight of my love next to me,giving her a soft peck,never cuddled and watch a movie and getting that cosy feeling u wd get,never lie under the sky to gaze at stars.ok u get the idea. pls advice thanks much appreciated.

[Gigabitch]

Maybe your reputation caught up with you. Think she might have met one of your exes, one you didn't care about?

[The Great OV!!!]

You bang all these chicks then you whine about not getting one that you really like....*checking if I care*....nope...

I don't know man, this entire club thing...just start frenching someone out of nowhere like that...honestly I don't believe in god but if he exists I hope he makes you die a lonely man. May the curse begin.

[outoflove]

i feel you,but its like im always having mind games with myself.eg i keep thinking whether she ll just wash her hands offf this ,whether shes just toying wtih my feelings, or if shes just using me as a rebound, maybe because she is bored?this is taking a toll on me mentally. her replies have been getting slower i know it doesnt mean anything but the vibe i get is that she cant be bothered as time pasts.how do i make the next step? i asked her out twice after taht day,frist day she said shes meeting her mom for dinner,2nd day she said its her friends birthday, and like i cant just self invite myself in. how do i be a part of her w/o being a nuisance and invade her personal space?

[outoflove]

Maybe your reputation caught up with you. Think she might have met one of your exes, one you didn't care about?

sorry i forgot to add this part, she doesnt know any of the girls i ve met and gone out with at all.i dont know but somehow i feel that she didnt really 'feel' me after our first date.

[outoflove]

ok i plan to ask her out on sunday, planning to give her own space on saturday so she can breathe, i wd call her saturday afternoon and like ask her whether she wants to have dinner at the beach and stuff. what do u say??