So i have this really good friend of mine. "James" We'll call him.
Weve been friends for about 3 years and weve always had a really different kind of friendship. I dno i get the impression he finds it difficult to get close to people just like me i guess but at the same time we have such jokes.
Hes kind of given himself this bad boy image to people, which i no he wants to grow out of but its proving difficult. Ive alwways loved him since the moment we met and ever since ive known him hes made it difficult for mte to no where i stand. (hes 20 and im 18)
We speak everyday and see each other almost 3 times a week. But its so weird. Hes so nasty to me sometimes and its horrible because when hes nice hes great and when hes nasty it confuses me.
Well anyway the other day he randomly asked me in a text if i had my eye on anyone and i replied "ive always got my eye on someone but that doesnt mean they have there eye on me" and he asked me how i new they didnt if i didnt ask them. It was one of those texts where he new in the back of his mind i was on about him. He also said he had his eye on someone and that he was in the same boat
A few days later when he was drunk he begged me to tell him who i ment in the texts and i said him and he also told me he ment me. But its like i dont no what to think. I like him so much its not right. Ive neeeeeever liked anyone like this before. I think about him everyday, every minute, i cant imagine myself with anyone else but him but then again i dont no what i want and i dont think he does either.
I text him yesterday saying "i wish id never told you now i dont want this to mess up our friendship"
he said "it wont do i like you yeh but i like you better as a friend"
and i replied the same because i know what he means by that. We have such a special friendship its one of those ones where its a win or loose situation, if anything happened between us i dont think we would ever be the same again.
I just dont no what to do. I met him today and he was cheekily touching my bum putting his arm round me cuddleing me and its like =S mate...can you stop fu**ing about with my head please.
What am i ment to think?
Pleaaaaaase someone help me out here. Im stuck in a rut =(