In love with my best friend

[Gigabitch]

Okay, here's some more: Do you have any girlfriends to hang out with? I think you could use some chick flicks and pedicures.

[hamster hero]

uh I am really sorry to hear what happened didnt quite turn out as you'd wanted it to!
Altough I understand and appreciate his behaviour. I think he likes you too much, admires you too much as a person (as he knows you so well) to risk to hurt you and he's probably, for what you said, not really ready to take on a relationship that would be very important for him (and you) right now. He probably feels a bit of extra pressure because of how much he loves you I'd say, so what I mean is you're right you guys seems to have all the ingredients ready there, but perhaps its the wrong time for him. Maybe he associates going out with you with some really serious long-term thing and maybe he's just not ready for that. I think if your friendship is as strong as it sounds like, for as much as it may hurt now, it will last, and maybe there's going to be a right time, or you may revaluate your feelings towards him or simply end up being with someone else.
I am going through a quite similar situation myself, I've told my friend of 7 years how I feel about him and luckyly for me he feels the same towards me. We are apart for the moment (he is in a different country) but we said we'll see what happens when I go and visit. I think both of us are questioning if its the right time as practical things are in the way, but feelings are there and its so rarely you find that kind of complete love feeling we dont really want to give it up.

I really wish you all the best with your situation. Talk to him about how you've been feeling in the last few days, tell him his sweet lines hurt you and why they do, and ask him if its just a matter of wrong timing or what it is he meant. You gone as far as telling him you love him, so you should know whats happening and stop wondering about it. Then once you know you can decide what to do with a clearer mind I think!
good luck!

[comp_lex]

You're right Giga, I'll pick up the phone and call all my other friends and go do stuff with them (fortunately most are men, so they'll keep my mind off my best friend )

I'm feeling a lot better though. I met him today, and I was surprised by how easy things were, and how calm I felt. We even hugged at the end, I was still fine. There was no tension as there used to be. I'm glad with how it went.

Hamster_hero, you're probably right. That's what I tell myself to make myself feel better I'm glad our friendship is unshaken. And maybe, who knows, some time down the line, we might get together. Spiro, spero, hein? As long as you live, you hope. There will always be a little bit of hope left in my heart. But that doesn't mean I won't move on.

As for the other thing you've said, I'm not sure I should talk to him about it again. I used to want to ask him whether it was a question of timing, or whether there could somehow be a chance for us in the future. I still want to, but I don't think that's a good idea. I think I just leave things as they are. He knows I'm interested, so if he ever wants a relationship, it'll be up to him to let me know. Should I open up the topic one last time?