6 years ago I fell in love with a guy. I was married and he was single. We dated each other for 1.5 years and it was best time I time in my life. Then he broke up with me because he believed I'was never going to leave my husband and he was going to get married to somebody else. Believe me, I so much wanted to leave my husband but every time when divorce question arised he made me feel so quilty for leaving him so I wasn't able to leave him. The break-up devasted me and I never got over it. 2 years ago the same guy called me to say hi and see how I am doing. Because I hadn't still forgiven him I said lots of bad things and he stopped calling until last December. Now He usually calls me once a week but we never talk about our relationship. Last week we finally met face to face and we spoke up what happened. I know that he still loves me and I love him even after 4 years being apart. He says we cannot change things because it would hurt his wife and daughter. I think they are hurt anyway because he loves somebody else. I don't know what to do? Should I just stop taking his calls and stay were I am? But were am I? I am still married to same man whom I don't love and never did. We have no sex life because he is 50 and has no desire and doesn't want to look for a help. I am 40, I deeply in love with someone else and I want to have satisfying sex. Is that wrong? I cry every day