I think i will just get strait into it here. I will try for short. I am in a relationship of only 9 mos. I do love this girl and would willingly stay with her if i was sure the love was mutual. I know there is no way for anyone to tell me if she loves me truely or not. So i wont waste your time with such idiocy.
I dont know where to start. I feel used quite a lot. I feel like many times all others take presidence over me in her life. I have had to deal with many lies, mostly about her ex although i dont really know the extent of it all. She was not able to work so i have been the finantial supporter. Not something that bothers me in the least but i have noticed that while i feel its ok to put her in front of me it seems that its become expected that i go with nothing to pamper to her. Just recently I have bought her a car nothing great, Im only a student nurse, but it was about 2000 dollars. My car is now a 400 beater. I am ok with that because she is safe in hers. Yes its in her name. Why is that important you might ask well I wonder if she just stays with me because i do buy her stuff.
Now before you jump to some conclusion I am not ugly deformed and have no issues with intamacy at all. The sex is very good so i know its not that that is from her that i get this. At any rate i treat her well i am not abusive emotionaly or physicaly I support her ideas and respect her dicisions as well as judgement. Still she finds points to argue over.
There seems to be no reasoning once in an argumentive state for her. I am told to shut up, just dont talk to me, and cursed at without regard at all to my emotions. I love her and want to be with her but am not sure if i should just let go how do you know even. I suspect she may have some emotional imbalance but she is worth everything to me. In the end i feel like I really may give everything and end up alone anyway.
I could go on but maybe this is a good point to start