hello everybody...
i really need anybody's help, please. i am in a long distance relationship... we have been dating for what would've been 9 months TODAY but we broke up yesterday... so last year in october-ish, i was going to university, i only went for a semester. i was ridiculously drunk and kissed a guy for about 10seconds, that's it tho. it was a quick stupid thing, he was a friend of a friend and i haven't seen or talked to him since, and there were NO feelings what so ever, i dont even really remember what he looks like. anyways, i told my boyfriend because i wanted to be honest with him... i told him when he came to visit...and he said that we would work through it. ever since he left 1.5 weeks ago we started drifting...it seemed like he was never excited to talk to me anymore or anything...so i confronted him about it saturday night...and he said it was nothing but i had a feeling a break up was coming...and surely enough, sunday morning it did. he said he hated thinking about it. and he ended it. we stayed on the phone for a while and talked like we were friends and it was okay, but every now and again i'd burst into tears. i feel like he isnt even upset, but he says he really is but doesnt want to show it. i need him back...ive grown to love him so much more than i did back then,and i would never ever cheat on him again. it was a stupid immature thing i did, and i know cheating is DISGUSTING...but it was so stupid. and i need to know what to do. please, no insults...i know what i did was so wrong and i'm really feeling like such an a-hole and i'm extremely depressed...i know i deserve it. i just... i need him. i cant stop crying. please help. thank you.