
Originally Posted by
AngelsBreath
here's the situation,im having anxiety and fear issues.i never realized this until recently,when i went on a job interview,when i was on my way to the interview a lot of my fears,frustrations and sad experiences came rushing.i know that a job interview is nothing for some but for me,it makes me so nervous,nauseous and scared and only on my last interview i realized it is a problem,on my way driving to the site,thoughts of my breakup with my ex,death of my father,and a lot of other bad experiences of being helpless and powerless overwhelmed me that i just parked the car and cried.i cried myself so hard until my jaw and facial muscles got tired.
i got the job,but im worried to sick that it might happen again when i am placed in a high pressure situation,and i know that i will be exposed to that coz of my job.
am i psycho?depressed?am i just not confident?socially freaked out?
Very interesting thing I've read once. About different emotional states. For example when you feel happy, when you laugh, when you're excited about something and generally have a good time it's very hard for you to feel sad. Your state of mind finds it hard to revert to that state. You can try it for yourself to see how hard it is next time you feel happy. Likewise when you feel sad, depressed, down it's very hard to feel happy. Even if you try to think happy thoughts your mind reverts to sentimentalism or depressing thoughts to mirror your physical state.
So, what could've happened is that the interview you were going to attend was just a trigger, a trigger that put you into a high anxiety state and because it's hard to get out of that state and easier to spiral down into the anxiety thought patterns your thoughts took you there and eventually you started thinking all posible thoughts that could mirror your feelings.
But look on the bright side! Everything to do with your body ussually has a reason. Maybe there was a need for you to release all of these emotions in order to start from a clean slate? Didn't it feel wonderful to flush down all of those negative feelings? Wasn't it less stressful in the end to conduct the actual interview after it happened?
Don't cry, don't regret and don't blame
Weak find the whip, willing find freedom
Towards the sun, carry your name
In warm hands you are given
Ask the wind for the way
Uncertainty's gone, your path will unravel
Accept all as it is and do not blame
God or the Devil
~Born to Live - Mavrik~