Hello everyone,
I thought i'd take this opportunity to discuss my story as i am at a loss with it at the moment...I hope someone out there can help me...
I was with a girl on and off for two years and it was a secret relationship...it wasn't serious at all at the start but drawing towards the end of the relationship, I started feeling for her as I could sense I was losing her...
As much as I didn't like it, she was in love with someone else and had some hope of being with that person in the future. I held myself back from being hurt but when I later realised that this person didn't want to be with her, I tried my best to rescue the relationship.
As the relationship was up and down in that two years, she kept telling me that she was unhappy (towards the end of the relationship) and wanted to split up as she didn't feel for me anymore...
Now the twist in this is that she claiming to be so besottedly in love with this guy BUT (in the last 4 months) I found out she was screwing some other guy while she was with me!
I sort of confronted her but she denied it and ut all contact with me...I also found out that she was getting advice from a friend to get me out of her life...in effect she said some really hurtful things to me that could have jeopardise things in my life in many ways (this was three weeks ago).
We didn't talk after that until last week she called me out of the blue To apologise for everything she said and that she didn't mean it...she needed some space away from me (she knows how I feel for her)...
We're trying to build a friendship now but I now know I want to be with her as we share so much and I want that spark back again...im not dwelling on it right now but maybe in time she will see that it is me that she wants to be with...what do I do?
When she did apologise; I did tell her that she killed any feeling/emotion that I had for her but I said in time we might be able to build a friendship...deep down I still feel for her so much...
She now believes that I don't suspect her for cheating on me (just to keep the friendship going) but she has realised that the guy she was cheating on me with has been using her...(I found out through a friend)
As much as we both have said to eachother that we should both move on with our lives; she is doing so and has already set up dates with people...what do I do?
Our relationship was and I guess always would be in secret as we both are part of a club and don't want anyone to know ever...it's so hard to deal with...as much as i want her back in my life, i have to carry this on my shoulders just to keep the peace/friendship going in hope she will see and feel for me again...I'm a mess
help