There is a guy who likes me for about a year, but I didn't knew about his feeling ... At first, he didn't confess to me because I already had a bf, and he didn't want to be a third person ... Then he went and ask another girl to be his gf because he want to try to forget me ...
But after a that, I broke up with my bf ... Because we are best friend, he knew about it (i told him) ... Then, he began to do his best to win my heart, but still he dind't confess, and I still don't get all the hints he's giving ...
Until just a few weeks ago ... he confess to me because he could no longer hold his feeling ... At first, I think I can't accept him because he and his gf are still together, but their relationship is at the worst stage, it's because he ignore his gf completely by not replying msg because he's too attracted to me ...
I and his gf are also friend, but not that close ... But still I am feeling very guilty for her if I accept him, and I can't turn him down because he's my best friend and I don't want to make him sad ... Then, he said he will break up with his gf ... But, his gf don't want to and she even said that if he leaves her, he will kill herself ...
And of course, he want me to accept him, because he really like me ... I accept him just about a week ago, yes I know it's a bad decision ... Actually, I still didn't know what my real answer is, but he keep on calling me every night and asked about my answer ... So, I just said 'Yes' and yeah, we are couple ...
Then, after a week, I feel very guilty about our relationship ... he still not break up with his gf because he can't or she'll die ... I kept thinking about this, and I can't calm down ... It makes me feel so down because I know that I am not supposed to accept him ... Because of this, I feel very awkward when we're dating ... I can't talk as I do before ... And it's also very hard for me because we have to keep our relationship as a secret from our friend so this news wouldn't reach his gf ears ...
I don't what should I do ... I don't know whether I am supposed to keep this relationship and wait until his gf calm down or just break up with him ... I have a really strong feeling to break up with him ... But, I don't want he to be sad ... Can anyone give me some advice? I am really confuse, and its makes me want to cry ...