Don't know where to start. Maybe I made a wrong decision? After a year of dating, there's no sign of future, I don't even know if I actually know him well enough to call him my boyfriend.
Is this my problem? I was never introduced to his family, not even his close friends back home, is he just trying to separate me from his world? What am I to him?
I feel depressed. A year of what I thought was love is suddenly fading away. He doesn't show much care when I look sad, all he said was "I don't like you to be cranky."
And why would he ask me if I want to go out with other guys? It hurts my feeling every time he said that, even he claims he's just joking.
I used to be so happy at the thought of him, but now I'm fearful of him picking on me. What is this? Love?
He doesn't let me get to know him more,either. We're from two different countries, and whenever I ask him about his friends and family, he would pretty much just vague it out. He also never,ever told his family about me because,according to him, they're "crazy."
I don't know...do I still love him? He never talks about future, never bought me a flower (because he said that's materialistic), never did anything to make me happy. Not to mention it's always me going out of my way to see him. Should I break things off with him?
Maybe I'm just too sad to write a reasonable thread, and maybe it's just full of my negativity...my eyes are red from crying and I'm sleepy.
Goodnight.