Others seem to interfere

[Bonovox40]

This past Saturday was open house at camp. There was about 18 Kiwanis members who came, a few from my parents chapter, and people who lived locally who wanted to see the camp. I got there before my parents and met Betty and helped out a little and got to meet the campers. It's been harder this session for her because this is the "late teenager" group. So they all have to added benefit of dealing with teenagers. Some of the problems include mad crushes on counselors, jealousy of attention, and some like to touch themselves a little too much. :-P

So after my folks arrive, Betty and I hang away from each other because there's too many people to make it seem obvious that we're together. We didn't eat lunch together but winked alot across the tables and smiled.

After lunch, the Kiwanis had money talks so everyone left and the kids had nap time. When they were in bed, Betty and I went behind the cabin where it was private and kissed awhile and she sat in my lap and we just talked of many things. After awhile, the members started to leave so we came back to say goodbye and I talked to my parents before they left.

The main lady still had things to say to Betty to were fake polite. Like you could tell a mile away if you knew her that she was just acting that she cared but she didn't. Betty was like the only counselor around and she put her to work right away. While working Betty spoke up and said "You know, I am the first counselor to always start working you know." and Nancy said "I know, and i'll be the first to appreciate you for doing so, hehe." But it was a fake comment. We both know this and Betty can't stand it. The sad thing is, it's not the kids or their problems or behavior that wears her down, it's the adults and staff she has to work with who don't care about her being there.

Like a big example. Betty's camper that she watches over this session is diabetic. Did anyone tell her that she was or that she can't eat much sugar? NO! Of course not! Not for almost 4 days of taking care of her. Betty said something one day about her breakfast being awfully unhealthy, and Nancy took it away saying "She can't have that much sugar, she's diabetic." Well thanks for informing the staff! The counselors don't know what ANY of the kids medical problems are. HELLO! It's not like it's anonymous here! It's a handicapped childrens camp, so you think that information would be available for the safety and well being of these kids.
Like Tanya from last year said "I want to come back to America, but never that camp again." I don't blame them for feeling that way.

So, I help betty and we washed dishes from the luncheon for 2 hours. Did anyone thank me? No. But I didn't care, we made it fun and laughed and had a good time helping each other. The main dishwasher broke a week ago. Do we complain that everything has to be done by hand? No. I helped them save time by doing a good job and helping. Afterwards, I put up chairs and swept the dining hall by myself even though some other girl was supposed to.

After that, the kids came back and watched a movie and Betty and I tried to go somewhere to kiss and talk, but it started raining so we didn't really get to. After that was dinner and I was asked to leave around 8 PM. 8? Last time I left at 1:00 AM and nobody cared. Why so early now? I showed that I don't cause problems and I worked like I was an employee. Nancy said something about how Betty's camper didn't sleep well and some crap but it was all BS. I know she doesn't like me AND Betty because Betty actually has free will and isn't a robot.

Betty was very dissapointed and I was too. We made the best of it and said that this Thursday, we'd make it up and just go crazy at my place. But she was upset that she had to sneak around just to walk me to my car. We talked for awhile and kissed and groped a little and she gave me a long letter and some poetry. I gave her 2 more dance mix cd's along with some romantic songs on them. (my personal fave being an all orchestral version of With or Without You)

I don't know how to explain but I really enjoyed saying goodbye. Not because I wanted to go, but the feelings that were there when we were saying goodbye. She hugged me so much and ran back to me twice, not wanting me to go. She wouldn't let go of my hand and said "I can't let you go." and I said "But you must for now." and we walked away pulling until our fingers slipped through each others. She stayed by the corner of her cabin in the dark and watched me until I drove away.

So it still was a good time. I was with her for about 9 hours so that's good in my eyes. On a serious note, she wants to get us something symbolic to let us and others know how we feel about each other. I don't know why it's so important to her, but I think she wants me to know that she'll go back home and others will leave her alone because she is taken. I'm not sure though if that's the idea. Anyway, she wanted matching silver-type rings and I said that would be cool, but that people here would see them and wonder what it means because gold means "marriage" and silver on the same hand would be like "???"
I know she wants something and i'm happy wearing something too if only to say that "I'm taken and in love."

Anyone have some ideas besides an engagement ring? lol.

[jslaughter]

First, I am glad that you had another good weekend with Betty. (Even if people around you were being weird - it's good that you were both above letting them ruin your good time.)

However, as for the rings as someone that wears lots of silver bands - I am always asked if I am married, so silver says married too. They have those broken necklaces where you each get half or part, but honestly I have never seen a man wearing one. (I had a Best Friend's Key chain - - that's as far as I've ever gone.)

Tattoos?

[Bonovox40]

Lol. Uh, tattoos are a little TOO permanent, plus we both share the same views that we don't want to turn our bodies into an art canvas. We're both cool with piercings and she only wants to go as far as getting her bellybutton pierced (and sometimes thinks of tongue but is afraid of the pain) but she gets flak from the piercers because she has a little mole right on the edge of where her bb should get pierced and they're afraid it would cause some kind of infection or something so nobody has done it. She could get it pierced on the lower side but i've never seen people do that. Seems strange in a way, but she's happy either way.

I'm cool with something silver, but since I told her that American's typically don't recognize silver to mean something as special (ala gold) she's not sure what she wants. She knows if it was an onion ring, that it would still be special to me. The symbol is how we feel between us, not what others think, but she wants it so everyone can see something visable between us. Why??

I sent her a letter today. Put a flower blossom inside too. The thing is, the last letter I sent, the evil lady kept it an extra day and didn't give it to Betty until she got back from the weekend with me. If it came on Wednesday, why not give it to her Thursday or Wednesday? Makes me wonder if it was read or something. IDK. I didn't say anything bad in the letter but still.

[jslaughter]

Maybe she wants something visable to make her feel a little more secure. Long distance relationships are difficult - she's proud of you and wants everyone to know you are hers and vice-versa. While it's not my style I can't fault her for thinking that way.

I've always loved wearing my boyfriend's shirts when we are seperated - especially big long sleeved shirts, if they wore it for a little while even better. Then it retains their scent- HEAVEN!

[Bonovox40]

That's probably the idea. I don't see anything wrong in it and if it makes her feel better or more secure, then that's great. One more thing to help with all of this.

I'm worried about the state budget right now. I'm not sure how much longer they're willing to postpone things. My friend thinks there will be a point that they will lose money to continue waiting so I hope Betty and I will be able to have time together to share something special before she has to leave. This summer will be the only real chance to do so until another year passes. :-/

[jslaughter]

Hang in there!

Still cheering for you from Sunny FL

[Bonovox40]

I decided today just for the heck of it, to see what airfare costs from Chicago to Budapest, Hungary round trip. I'm blown away here......$1,500-2,300??? WTF? Betty said it cost her about $650 round trip from there to New York and that was through an international YMCA group. I figured it might be a couple hundred a ticket but over $1000? Dang! Looks like I might have to put my DeLorean up for sale if I want to travel ANYWHERE in Europe! This sucks! My cousin has some airline connections and might be able to help me find some better deals but I had no idea. Wonder how much to be flown with the luggage? Lol. I'm serious though! I wouldn't mind taking a military transport craft and being stuck in there for 13 hours. Heck, I did it before for a few hours. Thought I was going to go deaf in a C-130 but it wasn't so bad. I passed out most of the trip thanks to getting airsick. :-P Didn't puke though.