Ok, I need more guidance again (am I getting annoying yet? )
To recap quickly: Met a girl at college two semesters ago, liked her, I thought she liked me (she did - as a friend, I think; she once playfully told me she loved me), she ended up getting a boyfriend. I kept hope, fell in love with her. After a while she broke up with her boyfriend. With only a week left of the semester, I told her I liked her, in fear that I wouldn't get another chance. She didn't really say whether or not she likes me, but she did say she doesn't want a boyfriend right now. I'm uncertain whether anything is going to happen between us. I gave her my phone number and she gave me her cell number, so we could keep in contact during the summer.
I talked to her on three different occasions this summer, and on each occasion the conversation was short, and she said she would call me back later, and never did (after the second call, I had called again a few days later and left a voicemail, and she did call back, but I wasn't home and just got a message on my answering machine).
So, she only called me once, and that was because I had left her a voicemail. I had called her back after I got the message, and she was busy and said she'd call me back. Never did, and as I mentioned above, that is the third time that happened. Her not calling back when she says she is going to makes me think that maybe she doesn't really want to talk to me (or maybe she's just really absentminded). The one thing that really stuck out from these short conversations is that she began using my first name, which I see as a pretty good sign.
I'm afraid I may be bugging her. One or two of her ex-boyfriends acted similarly after their breakups, calling her a lot, and she told me about how those calls from them drove her nuts. I feared I may be doing the same thing (despite the fact that I'm not dating her). Still, I never really got a chance to talk to her in length this summer. I want to know how she's doing, how her new job is, and how she's feeling. Plus, I'm hoping something will develop between us. I considered sending her an e-mail today just to kind of say "what's up?", and to mention that I thought I might be annoying her by calling. I decided not to. In a month I'll be back in college, and I may see her again. What will happen from there I don't know. Plus, her e-mail address that I have is a student e-mail, which she may not check during the summer. I know her personal e-mail address, but she doesn't know I know it, so I don't want to freak her out and send her an e-mail to that address. Right now I think I'll just be patient and see how she acts around me this semester, unless some of you feel differently...
Am I doing anything wrong? Should I e-mail her, or give her another call? Do I even have a chance with her? Should I just let her go? I'm so lost. I can't stop thinking about her for too long...