I need help realy realy bad ive never been this depressed over a breakup before. My boyfriend of two years said that he doesnt want to talk to me ever again. First some brief background information back in januaray we started going to college together and alot of bad things happened he became controlling over my new found freedom and i did not like that then he found out his mother was sick and it went down hill from there. I have been very controlled as a teen and at college i wanted to explore but he needed me and I couldnt be there because i was takign care of me. He got depressed started makign suicide threats drinking and making my life hell so i pushed him away and as always another boy was watchign and waiting and i found consolence in him. I regret what i did but i never had sex with him or anything it was just fliting and a couple of kisses but my boyfriend had broken up with me and i didnt believe we were getting back togeter. the part that hurt him the most was he saw texts a couple of days after to the boy but i was drunk and hurt which is no excuse but just for info. Short story fast we got in alot of fights but got back together over the summer but i think its because i pressuers him to be with me. This semester went ok simply to the fact i confined myself to my dorm room and spent all my time with soly him but now hes different. He doesnt love me the same and doenst do the things he used to do and I believe he doesnt love me as much even though he says he does. All this built up into anger which currently now leads me to this forum. We are home on break and i havent seen him in 11 days until today. he doesnt call me and when I do talk to him hes upset because im sad and alwas crying but i just want him to love me but he says he is and doesnt know why im complaing but i tell him how i feel and he doesnt understand and ultiatmly today got in another big fight please tell me what im doing wrong anyone.