ok, i have just realised a big problem i have. i posted a while back about this guy, i have known him for years, we ended up having a sexual relationship for a while, he just keeps on coming back, this time he has said things will change, well if they will we will see, but i have just realised why i keep driving him away, i think it is because i havr this habit after we get a bit close that i become this total control freak and freak out over the slightest thing. he is in the army, sometimes, we wouldn't have contact for a while, and then he would text, and we wouldn't see each other for 2 weeks, and things would be fine, they are great, we see each other, things are great, he goes back, and 2-3 days later i am freaking out over wheather he is still gonna want to see me, where as, before we had seen each other, if i had texted him, and he didn't text back until a couple of hours later, that would have been fine, no worries, now if he doesn't write back straight away, i am thinking he already has another girl. what is the matter with me, i know i have some serious relationship issues, but this is ridiculas. like we saw each other last week, then he went away for the weekend, so he didn't text that much, i know he was busy, but i can't get it into my think head that he was busy, when he had time he wrote, and yesterday he didn't write until he said good night, and i was freaking out the whole night, i couldn't stop thinking about he might not be interested anymore, and this morning i felt pysically sick thinking about why he only wrote so less. i am a serious mess, and i don't think it will ever stop. i drive him away because i am like this, i mean who wants to have something with a complete control freak. my god i need help.