I am in problem , i don't know what to do..............
I fell in love with a boy of my class, it will seem strange that we never went out together or anything like that..........he added me in gtalk last yr . I actually admired him initially as he is a good boy and well mannered,good in studies as my many friends are.Well I am doing b.tech , and I am a 20 yr old girl.As we began chatting I began liking talking to him,his jokes made me laugh. He also liked talking to me ,I can say that because we stayed awake till 4 or 5 in morning just chatting..........no-one saying bye........For 5 months we talked so much.he used to tease me from gmail ids of other classmates. When we met in class we never talked,just smiled.He used to give me hints like.....evrything is fair in ......I used to ask in what?he never spoke and I started dreaming.Even his friend once teased me on gtalk to ask who that girl is...teasing types..People please tell me after all this what would I think ..I got 100% sure this time that he likes me ......and my feelings got stronger,deeper,affectionate.When once seeing my gtalk status he asked what dream you have,why don't you tell me....I said you are my dream......And you know what he said.......i hope it is only a joke......A JOKE?????? Now my tears don't stop...I feel uneasy......I told him that I love him......He says he never thought so.He says he is not allowed to marry outside his caste........Even I am not.What shall I do now.I am a kind of girl who never talked with boys so much ,he is the first one who knows everything about me......How will I live without him???
He says he is sorry for hurting me.........and I know he is.....he gets worried and asks me not to cry.I have not ended aur friendship.But I just can't be just a friend .......It hurts...And I don't want to lose................I am lost ..........I don't know what to do................cry forever.