Hi everyone this is my first post on this forum
Me and my girlfriend broke it of little over 2 months ago. I had more or less broken her heart dealing with my own problems. My negativity drowe her down well. I wanted to get back together with her 5 months ago but she was bitter and angry at me. She had the upper move. She eventully came down to see it i had changed. In her views I hadnt. She broke it of some days later. We've been together for 4 years.
I wrote her a long letter and got a responce after 3 weeks. She wrote she had nothing new to say at the current time. She lost herself in the last period of the relationship. She needs to find herself and to get new impulses. She was naiv thinking she could change me to be møre positive. She is worn out and dont have ang more strenght to use in this relationship. She has been depressed and down and spent many tears and effort to get where she is today. She will not take a step back in that direction again. She is dating and its both nice and wierd. She is angry because she constantly feels that she is not allowed to date. She says she misses me every day, that she cries when there is a sad song or memories of me on the tv she cries. Part of her is so lonely. No one will have a bigger place in her heart than me. She will never meet a person like me, that she is sure of. But she think its best that we go our own way. she is crying now because this hurts. she refers to her mother that nothing is sertain in the future. It we are ment to be together I guess we'll end up together one way or another. She says take care and finishes the letter with: "remember! Who knows what the future brings. I will never close the door for good when it comes to you. Love you more than you ever understood. Please dont let this letter bring you down"
I wrote her back accepting her decission, saïd that she wasnt naiv thinking that she could change me. That she has to do the things she feels she needs to do. That i have done steps in improving my life. that she finds herself and i find myself and we find each other in the end.
I didnt get a replay but she sent me flowers on my birthday!! Orcheds, which is her favourite flower. I wrote her an sms thanking her for the gift and that in looking forward showing her how well I will maintain the flower. i got a hugs and kisses sms back where she included the whole family that was with her. My heart was hurting so much but i felt happy also.
6 days have past and we had no contact. I really want her back but I accept the break up. I really hope that there is a chance for us in the future, but I accept that i have to move on. But I do have some problems with the last words in the letter. Im trying to get rid of the hope or the fact that she is telling me something. She regarded me as the love of her life and had to put up with lots. She dont trust me since she has been let down So many times. On our behalf it has been all about timing. I was at a point things where rough personally, but im pretty much there now. To bad that she is not.
Didnt think I was going to ask this but is there hope for us in the future you think?
Cheers