My story - 37 yrs old, father of two kids, 6yr old boy 3 yr old girl, never married mom, have kids 50% of the time. I have been "dating" a 24 yr old gal for about a year and a half. She is young, single and beautiful, and loves to do the big social scene hanging out with her friends. Both of us are so alike, very non-committal, love to flirt and play around. Anyhow we met, got intimate and soon fell in love so deep that I never even knew it could be like this - It took so long for us to admit it even though I knew and she did too. The past year both of us tried to deny to ourselves that it would ever go anywhere besides the incredible intimacy we shared once or twice a week in the bedroom. I don't think we ever really committed - No one would even consider us a couple, we choked on the words BF/GF. Our relationship was like some big secret - We would break up because we both said we need so much more, but we could just not let go - we'd try again, then the 'being more' would never happen. We both said how much we wanted to be a part of the others life, but I guess we were so afraid of what others would think - her friends/fam - Some dirty old perv with kids just shaggin their hot daughter? All my friends told me she was too young I just loved gettin laid, get over it and I was being stupid. There was an awful lot of hurting, lies and deception. It went both ways - It came down to an emotional holocaust where both our hearts blew to pieces. All this time the only thing we both believed and never doubted was that we would always be in love. Well I tried to move on and find someone who could be a part of my life, and I did - it was the best thing possibly to ever happen to me, yet I could not deny my feelings for the other girl, and I lost the good thing. All the money in the world couldn't make me pretend I still did not love this young woman. Through all the pain and heartache which nearly emotionally destroyed us, we are both still here, and cannot deny that when we hold one another the world just goes away and we feel love for each other like it was meant to be between a man and woman from the beginning of time. We are so scared to try again, but we know the mistakes we made and we're going to try and right them (trust and communication). My question is every day I look at this woman, kiss her and hold her, or lay with her, and wake up in next to her I know I will never feel the same for another - and like I said I had everyman's dream with the other girl, but without those other feelings it stood no chance against the power of what I share with my true love. To give you an idea, I never knew what true love was until I had children, and I always wondered if it was possible to feel that way about a woman. Well if you have never loved someone like this you wouldn't understand, but yes it happens!!! Or am I crazy - I love her so much - I really figure I have nothing to lose, and I believe she wants to try too...theres so much more but thats the basics - it would be different if I felt this way and she didn't or vice versa - we both believe that to feel like this is a once in a lifetime opportunity, but both of us never saw it coming or knew what to do with it - Can we make it work??? We have the one thing that so many couples never find. any thoughts????????
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