Hi..
I am 27 years old tall and handsome man with whetish complexion. I was in short term relationship with girls few years back & to be honest i had once or twice protected & steamy love making sessions with them.I have always been honest to them.but i always found them laing to me about themselves, may be they were not as passinate as i was about them.And i found it very hurting when i felt used and finally relationship ended.My last relation with girl was very dipressing.I was making my mind to convince my parents to marry that girl where as she was planning to get rid of me.she changed her mind by saying that she has got other commitments too in her life and got engaged with someone else.For sometime, i thought she is just kidding but i was shocked to learn when i dialed her cell no.she had changed her phone no.She was carrying two phone numbers which i discovered later.Fortunaltly i was with her for more than a year and i used to feel great when we were together.I was very glad to think about my current love life and future. I did not even think that she can dump me. but finally it happened to me.To be honest again, I did not make love with my this last girl but yes we did some smooching.
I remain in state of shock for some time which caused me to loos focus of my life and lost my job too.but after some time i convinced myself that she was not bad but actually it was my misfortuen and a bad experience. I was feeling very lonely as all my passion became punishment for me.few more days passed, then i reopened the door of my heart so that some one could come in my life.I was desparatly wanting some one in my life but nothing happent.No body again tried to come closer to me nor i tried. Now i hv a strange fear of breaking my heart again.so after watching lots of hollywood movies i decided to go for one night stand. and the only place to find a female partner for one night stand in Delhi was PUB. Here also my luck did not favoured me as i did not have idea about pubs in Delhi coz I m a teetotaller & pure vegitarian.From one movie i got an idea to get a call girl.some how i managed to get a cell no of pimp from news paper & i landed to the so called escort palce in west Delhi.There also during initial conversation i curiously asked some question related to her & her place.she got scared by considering me as a threat and refused to go ahead.
My love life has been so painful that now i have started feeling that there is no love in my life.
I always desired to be one woman man so i became very serious every time and i always wished for life long relationship(marriage), but nothing good happend in my life.
So, Dear friends please suggest me what should i do...should i get married to a girl of my parents choice.Should i settle with a girl about whom i dont know anything. or i should wait for ture love to knock my heart once again? I am very confused..I am already 27 and earing 2.5 lacs PA.I am very lonely pls input your thoughts on it.
Thanks
Amit
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