I don't know.

[Onetime34]

I want to begin by saying that I am only human; flesh and blood; I make mistakes and wonder where my heart may take me. I do not wished to be judged, only understood. We are all flawed and so I am flawed. I wish I could follow my heart, but what if my heart tells me something I do not want to hear?
Once, I had my heart broken. It was cold and cruel and I would never wish such pain on anyone, not even to the very person who wronged me. I was lost and like most would feel, I felt like I would always be lost. However, I found myself falling for someone harder than I could ever imagined falling for. I lost myself in her; basked in all the care, love, and thoughtfulness that one could only dream of.
Like all things though, our love has grown difficult; I feel now like caring for anyone else aside from family must be kept a secret lest I hurt the one I care for most. I do not want to fail her, and never would I even dream of doing it intentionally. Nowadays, I find myself contemplating something no lover should ever have to ponder. It is such a vile and dark thing that can destroy even the best of us. As I have said before, I am human. One can not help exploring the deepest, darkest depths of their own minds, and especially the endless squalls of our own hearts.
I am alone for the moment; in the dark, tapping away, on this keyboard, the very fabric of my broken heart. I have not done the deed yet but I am lost in the idea of it. The thought may very well drive me mad with how much I have juggled it in my mind. Should I continue to endure the hardships and snares that I find more and more in my relationship? Or should I indulge in my forbidden desire, just this once.
Love is a strange thing. It is what we seek the most in life. Yet it causes more pain and heartache than any weapon or tragedy could ever exert upon our fragile being. So I say this to you, is love enduring all the flaws and desires of the one you care for most? Or is it following your heart wherever it may take you.

Please, I encourage you to tell me what you think.

[Yggdrasil]

Can you be any more cryptic?

[lastwish]

Humans are flawed but there are still consequences to unkind deeds. Don't be tempted to cheat on your partner.

[thrillaveza]

pretty deep man, well i guess my situation can relate to this as well. i fall hard too. hard to the ground to where i think i cannot pull through. but lemme assure you that whenever you fall hard, to whatever doesn't kill you, will make you stronger. if you can hang on (like how i am doing), eventually things will get better. and i too am not one to give such advice as i feel where you are coming from.

[Lost.Perspectiv]

"I cannot understand the words that are coming out of your mouth."

Dude...seriously. What. Are. You. Talking. About.

Are you asking a question, or experimenting with freeform fictional writing?

Is this some sort of artistic expression that I'm too dense to understand?

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I can't understand what this deep, dark deed is.

Cheating? Don't do it. You're less of a man if you do.

Hiring a prostitute? Same as cheating, just dirtier and more expensive.

Wearing women's clothing? If that floats your boat, go for it. Maybe your girlfriend can help you accessorize.

Killing yourself? 1-800-784-2433.

Adopting 35 cats and filling your house with feline shaped furniture? Please call the above number.

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Seriously. Help me out here.

[Asip4u]

Sounds a bit like George...