Please help..

[ana_etheridge]

I started dating my boyfriend a few months ago, I really love him we're so similar. We were best friends for a fair while before and while i was still with my ex he told me that he was in love with me. I was happy coz I knew I loved him too but I was still with my ex and I didn't want to break up with him coz he had a lot of issues and I didn't want to hurt him.

I eventually broke up with my ex and started to date my now boyfriend. We were really happy together because we liked everything the same and we both have the same personalities. That was good most of the time but coz we were so similar we fought a lot too and we're both really stubborn so neither of us will admit we're wrong or just give in.

We had been fighting a lot, like nearly every day for a few weeks and then the other night something quite traumatic happened to me and I tried to tell him but it was at about 5:30 in the morning and he'd just woken up so he wasn't really understanding me. All he said was "we have to talk in the morning" and that he was crashing. Naturally I was really upset but I had other stuff to deal with at the time.

The next day things had sorted themselves out with the traumatic thing that happened but i was still really shaken and crying on and off. I didn't get a message from him, though I'm not sure if he even remembered texting me the other night because he was half asleep. When I did it was when i was on a train home with little to no reception. He messaged me with "I want a break" I pretty much flipped and lost it on the train with all the crap that had happened earlier. I just said to him that we should just be friends, i didn't even think before I sent it coz I was just so screwed.

I was out of my mind but trying to keep it together coz i was home with my parents and I didn't want them to see me how I really was. But that night it kinda hit me with what I'd done.

Although he was a jerk about the whole thing that happened to me and we'd been fighting a lot I still love him and i definatly didn't want to break up with him and I tried explaining that to him but he's so angry and upset and he won't listen to me when I try to explain.

When I asked him about the break he said that he didn't want a real break just a weekend appart so he could stop stressing about us and hopefully stop us fighting, but with previous experience all i thought a break meant was a temporary break up where he could go off with other chicks. He'd already thought it through and cancelled his plans for the weekend that he'd had for 3 months with his friends so that he could have alone time to think about us and sort out everything but me being insane at the time didn't consider that he could've meant anything else...

I tried to explain everything but he's so upset and hurt and I don't know what to do coz I really love him and I want to be with him but I don't know how to get him to forgive me... please give me some help... I really need it.

[Lipp]

What was the "traumatic thing"?

[ana_etheridge]

It was to do with my brother and I really don't want to talk about that right now