Going crazy!!

[braun]

Right, I'm new to this site, just stumbled across it thanks to google.

So basically I have known this girl since around 2nd year of secondary school (about 14/15 years of age) and at first I never thought anything of her & vice-versa, then when we were in our final year of school she was in my Physics class and was going out with a mate of mine, we used to talk quite a lot and I started to like her, but at the time I didn't think she thought of me as anything more than a friend.

As we got nearer to exams and our senior ball she broke up with her boyfriend and started talking to me more & more, but again I never thought anything of it, come senior ball, for certain reasons I couldn't make it and she was asking me to come & pick her up during it because she wasn't enjoying it, but unfortunately I couldn't, however come the after party she called me and asked if I could come over and I did.

We chatted for a bit then she asked if we could go for a drive alone, we drove pretty much all night, all over the place, and on our way back to the party (at around 10am) she asked if we could go back to mine and I said ok. We went back to mine, got into bed (tired from being up all night) and cuddled, eventually one thing led to another and the inevitable happened, we hooked up.

As time went by we got closer & closer and started pretty much going out, she would stay round at mine almost every week, sometimes a couple of times a week, this continued for about 3 months and we eventually fell in love, however the time came where I had to go to university (some 600 miles away).

We tried to make it work, but one night she was at a concert and phoned me all happy, etc. All seemed fine to me, then the next day, all of a sudden, out of the blue she stopped replying to my messages, etc and she eventually told me she just wanted to be friends. To this day I don't know why she just turned round and said that, it was almost 4 years ago!

So I continued university and got my degree (with honours) after 3 years of hard work (all the time thinking about her almost every day). However in my final year of my degree I never spoke to her at all, but I did think of her a lot. I graduated and moved back home summer 2008, got a job and then when I got a new car last Oct (knowing she likes car) I sent her a message and told her, from then on we started talking more & more and getting a bit closer, however she is still a 3 hour drive away at university.

Then one night at about 2am on a Saturday at the end of March she calls me asking to drive down and see her right away, not thinking and just following my heart I agreed and drove the 3 hour trip, getting there at 5am.

When I got there, I expected to just crash on the couch, but as I lay down she told me to come to her bed, so I did, we lay there talking for a bit, then we cuddled up and eventually we had sex. For the next few days we text each other quite a bit, then I did the stupidest thing of my life....I told her I loved her WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY too soon!!

She was quite shocked, and we still talked online, but not as much as before. Now she is away on her summer holidays visiting family abroad and I can't stop thinking about her. Also a guy I know who is good friends with her (and whome I also know from school) was telling me tonight, that a while ago (not sure if before or after I went to see her at 2am) she was on the phone with him crying saying she is in love with a guy she met at uni, but he doesn't feel the same way about her.

Now I am head over heels about this girl and would do ANYTHING for her. What I don't know is have I totally blown it, or what?? Also, when my mate said she was crying about some other guy, it made me think, am I just the rebound guy?? First time we got together was not long after she broke up with her boyfriend, and now if she only called me after she was in tears about another guy, it's making me think I'm just a rebound guy.

Thing is I don't actually know if she was in tears about this other guy before or after I went down at 2am or if he has anything to do with it at all (he might not do).

What I want to know is how can I make things right again? Everything was going fine before I opened my trap and told her I still loved her (last time before I went to uni I waited for her to say it first).

What can I do???

P.S. Sorry for the REALLY long post, but though you guys should know the whole story.

[Xenon76]

When does she get back from visiting family? Maybe you should just ask her where you stand and if she sees it going anywhere.

Good luck!! keep us posted

[braun]

Not totally sure when she gets back, all I know is uni starts again in mid Sept, so some time before then, she has an open return ticket, so could be any time....

Also, when I asked her about why she had called me at 2am for a "lift back home the next day" instead of just taking the train (quicker & cheaper) she said it's because we had started talking again like we used to before I went to uni and she missed me, but that it didn't mean anything???