Ok I've known a girl for some time and within the past year have gotten to know her fairly well. As I got to know her, I became attracted to her mainly due to her personality. I didn't realize how attracted to her I was until she went out with a guy and I became very depressed as a result. After a couple weeks her relationship with the guy faded and ended. At about this time I left for a family vacation to Alaska (which gave me a lot of time to think) and I decided I would ask her out to put an end to this feeling of hopelessness. So, the second day I was back, she was hanging out with friends of ours and before we left, I asked her. She mentioned that we were friends and I said I respected that, but wanted to know if I had a chance at all. She did agree to go out with me and I was on cloud nine. I talked to friends to find out more about her and I wanted to make the date perfect.
I bought a dozen roses (she had never been given roses before), bought her favorite cd to play in the car, and I took her out to dinner. Please tell me if you think this is too much for a first date. Everything went great, we talk quite a bit and I learned a lot more about her.
When I took her home I got out of the car to give her the flowers and the awkward silence came about where I either kiss her or say something. Out of respect for her and the fact that it was a first date I put an end to the silence with a hug. As I walked back to my car, I noticed that she hadn't gone inside yet. Then, I heard her say, "Matt, I don't know if Pat or Alex (friends of ours) have told you, but I'm not real good with relationships and I leave guys hanging". I told her that I respected that and that they had said that to me (as they had). She then preceded to say that, because I was a friend, that she didn't want to hurt me.
My friends also told me that she usually leaves a guy hanging when they start to like her more. I really don't want to say I'm really attracted to her because I fear I may blow it completely. However I truely feel that she is smart, friendly, funny, has a great personality, and on top of that, I believe she is incredibly beautiful. I wouldn't say she's hot as I usually describe good looking females because she has a different kind of beauty, one that is much more natural than those who are considered "hot".
My question is, what should I tell her? Should I put up with the feeling of depression I know I'll get whenever she goes out with someone else or should I tell her my true feelings. Just being around her feels like hearing your favorite song on the radio after you haven't heard it for a while (at least that's the only thing I can compare it to). What should I do? I'm supposed to see her within the next week and then school will begin. Thanks, Matt