okay so ive been with my girl for three years
long story short i never took her out really, we would see each other but not all the time but we were happy, the reason i wouldnt take her out is because when i was 16 around when we began dating i got jumped and it really messed with my head, over the next two years i got over it but whenever she would ask me out i thought, yea i can handle myself but what if something happened and i couldnt protect her. ive never told her but a month ago she said she couldnt do it anymore, kuz whenever we have plans they break or my ride bails on me last minute, im a very sweet guy and love her, ive told her im ready no matter what we will go out, have fun and things will be different, and i really mean it, so look, for two weeks she wouldnt talk to me, then we start speaking, things look good but she says she doesnt know what she wants, she keeps everything inside, she never told me the relationship was hurting, but im glad it happened this way kuz it lets me know what i need to do, shes sweet and so beautiful, but we had a convo that were gonna take things slow, not friends not together jus see what happens, so i ask her if she wants to chill and she said yea, i said r u sure and she said yea really its cool, so long story short i asked her if we could chill on friday she said she had plans but wasnt sure, then she told me yea, then the day were sposed to get together she bails and said her friend uncancelled, so i tect her today n say i know u went out last night so r u free today? she said she cant, i said im sorry, she said about? i said not being honest, she didnt reply, i said u said u wanna chill, well im not gonna press it kuz i feel as if im bothering u, if you really want to get together let me know. she still didnt reply, n i thought man maybe she took it wrong, so i said ok and im not mad or anything everything is strait dont worry, kool? and she hasnt replied since, this was earlier this afternoon, is she mad or what? im so blown kuz weve always been honest, i know there is no one else or any of that, she just keeps everything inside and doesnt deal with it, shes scared if she gets back with me it will be the same, but im ready. sorry for writing a book people lol.