I'm super jealous of my boyfriend because he is from Australia and had sex and relationships and i feel incredibly behind and naiive...
He's had a three-way relationship with two bi girls, and with me being bi i'm extra jealous of that and so curious, he's had sex in the sea, on the beach, in a pool, in the mountains, under a waterfall, on a balcony and its just blowing my MIND... he has shown me photos he took of beautiful naked girls who were 'friends' of his bi girlfriend in his apartment, and a pic of about 10 naked girls standing in a row by his pool... I just see what an amazing sex life he had and... wooow.
But that's not what mainly bothers me, it's mainly the fact that he has done so much and it makes me really jealous and sad to imagine him doing that stuff with other women and gets me wondering about the emotional attachment he had with them... and basically I feel like I am missing out.
To me, the experiences sound so sparkly and deep causing a deep feeling inside me that's craving for the experiences too... but because he has done it all already I feel so behind.
He is older than me, and it really saddens me that I am so naiive and the things he has done seem so 'grown up' and I feel small like a child back to the young days when I wondered what it was like to have sex... that is exactly what I feel like compared.
He says that when we go to Australia together, he will share the same experiences with me but I don't know what to think about that because he's already done them with other women and that makes me feel sad when I haven't and I'm nothing new
It's like, I want answers to all my questions because I feel so shady.
What can I say to him to show him how I feel? What should I do? What would you do in this situation?