I messed up should I stay or go

[deedee]

I have been dating my boyfriend for 4 yrs. now and 6 months ago I slipped. I didn't cheat but you can almost call it that. I started hanging out with old friends and new and in the middle of my group was my ex boyfriend. Now before I go on I have to say that when I hurt I tend to hurt others. well since I was sneaking away from my boyfriend to go out I saw him a lot but we were always good friends never anything else, and we got a lot of "oh are you guys going to get back together?". We knew it would never happen so we decided to tag along and play and told everyone yes. My boyfriend had lent me his old phone to use till I got my new one. His old phone when he went to delete the messages he saw everything and he dumped of course he was devastated and he dumped me. We got back together a month later. So far things have been good for the most part, but lately I feel like he's getting annoyed with some of the things I do and stupid things like "oh babe get me some water" and "do me a favor" kind of like that. I know I messed up but I don't know how to fix it and I know he deserves better. Like he doesn't deserve to be with someone who is drowning in their own crap. I'm wondering if I should stay and try to keep fixing it or just move on I've done enough damage.

[Perryville]

Ask your BF, what HE wants, and where he thinks the relationship is going. You are coming off as trying to be a martyr. You did a bad thing, now try to correct it.

[lhn]

Deedee, damn... messed up is an understatement. Sorry, not gunna throw it in your face but the trust you crave is going to be gone for a long time.
You said nothing happened with your ex... why did you tell people you were getting back together?!! You sure nothing happened? theres no face to be saved on here.

Leave this relationship, atleast for a little while. A lot of damage has been done and this guy is sticking by you because he loves you, not because he trusts you.
I will never understand why people do this to those who love them.

Sorry if I sound annoyed but I am. Mistakes happen and regrets are prevalent on this forum but you shat on him. Anyway... constructivenesss...

Speak to him and both make a joint decision on where this relationship is/needs to go for both of you to move on. Find out if you can move forward together or if you need to move on apart. It would be for the best.