Thank you ladies. your experience and thoughts are enlightening and very helpful. It makes sense and its the road I seem to be on. My heart has not told me to quit yet but I have ran away only to be nurtured back by her. My values are different and that's why I'm still sticking around.
We fight and walk away then feel the closeness that is stronger than the pain we caused eachother. I have learned that those closest to you see your darkest deamons and at that moment, your partners character, skill and intentions are revealed.
We learn about ourselves in relationship with others.