Here i sit posting on valentines day alone and scared going through a panic attack and i cant seem to calm down. I have posted that i have been going through a breakup, my lady of 8 years left me recently three months before our wedding when our lives and future were looking good. I haven't been alone in so many years i just pray i had someone right this second to take to breakfast and pamper all day. I have mixed emotions about what to do next in my life and my relationship we cant move out yet so we are still living together, but contact has been slim between us which i have heard is what i need. We just bought a brand new home and we have been trying to get pregnant for two years and i know everything has just gotten to her and she no longer wants to go on with me and get let life disappoint her. I cant say enough how i thought things were fine of course she did this one day to the other. My point is i know all i have to do and what i cant do, but i cant seem to get up and move on, problem is i don't want to. Some people think i should forget about it all and move on, but others say if you feel that strongly about her and i think this is all a huge mistake on her part and that she will realize it someday maybe soon it might be to late. Ia so confused i don't have much support or friends and family i am on my own panicking how do i find comfort? As helpful this forum is should i really look for someone i can talk to in person? i think it would help me a lot especially if its someone that feels exactly like me. where do i turn????????????????