Ok, before I go any further does anyone know how to keep this site from signing you out if you are idle for more than a minute or two? I just typed a bunch of responses only to get a messgae saying that I wasn't logged in and my responses erased once I did log in.
@ tropigal82 : I am not wearing a shirt in my profile picture, so that might have been me that you saw. Just to be sure I posted "Hello to tropigal82 " on my wall for you to see. It is a public profile, so you should be able to see it.
@ bluesummer : Yes "room mates" sums up our relationship perfectly. There is no real physical intimacy, and hardly any emotional intimacy.
I realize as you all respond that there are details that I leave out, and I try to add them. That being said, its not that she says "no" to me (although she used to). She lets me have sex with her if I really want it, but that is precisely the problem. She lets me have sex with her. It makes me feel like a f*cking rapist to have sex with someone who is letting me have sex with them instead of wanting me to have sex with them. I've told her this before too since I translate that into her not wanting me in general. She usually responds with "I do enjoy sex" and "I do want you". I rebutted with the following : You enjoy eating candy bars, so you want one every now and then. If you want a candy bar you will go and get one, and then enjoy it. So......if you enjoy sex, you want it. If you wanted sex you would think about it and then act on that desire (especially since the source -me- is readily available). She didn't agree with the comparison, but couldn't give me a reason why it was flawed.