So today I called her to see if she wanted to get some coffee. (note: I did not call her out of desperation or because I'm trying to get back with her. It has been a month of very limited contact and i have not shown her any signs of desperation or anything.)
I originally planned on just meeting her at starbucks for like 30 mins or so but she said she wanted to come over then we would go together.
So she came over and we talked about just casual stuff and it was really good to see her. There was no awkwardness and everything just felt normal like we are just good friends. Neither of us asked about how we've been or about the break up or anything.
So we go get coffee together and we come back to my place. We again just sat and talked for the about 2 hours. One thing that caught my eye was that whenever we would bring up a movie or something that she recently saw in theaters, she would always seem to mention that no guys were there.. For example, "she would say oh yah i saw this movie..... I was with my aunt." And another time, she told me she had plans to go to a party this one night and she was in the area of a movie theater and decided she didnt want to go to the party so she got dinner all by herself and watched the movie all by herself. I thought this was kind of strange and don't really know what to think.
She also was saying how stressed she has been lately. She is really busy with school, she is starting some intense soccer conditioning next week, and she just got a job. She says all these things are really just makin her head go crazy and that its really stressing her.
Anyways, we talk a lil more and I eventually walk her out and she leaves.
It felt soo good to see her today. I know a lot of you are going to say, " DO not take this as false hope blah blah blah" but to be honest, I am not taking this as hope at all. Today was really just for me to show her that ive been doing good and that I still want to be friends with her. I am not going to push her into hanging out with me and im not going to try and force anything on to her. I am here to support her and be her friend and if she wants something more, then she knows where to find me.