Listen to Giga she's a very smart lady. If you keep taking risks, you will eventually find a girl who will make you happy. Even if it's for a short time those happy moments will be so worth it. You don't see that right now but you'll see one day, good things will happen and it will melt away all those bad memories.
-to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.- e.e.cummings