Hey everybody.. so this is my first post.. and I'm a little bit nervous.. cause I don't know what you will think about me when you read the story that I'm gonna tell you now..
A year ago.. I had this best friend, Kevin. He was really nice and we had so much fun together.. I think it was the best time of my life, but then this time changed. Everyone told me how good we fit together.. and what a lovely couple we are. I laughed about it, but then I realized, that he talks in a different way to me than I to him.. First, I don't want to pay attention to it.. one day I told his colleauge that he should tell Kevin, that he should let me go..
I didnt want to hurt him.. cause I thought that he would get over me if he doesn't see me anymore.. but because of that.. I hurtet him and me, because after that I realized, that he ment nearly everything to me, but I was not able to love him..
On my birthday he wrote me that he knows that he is not very important to me.. but he wanted to wish me happy birthday. The I wrote back: "You mean something to me. How r u?" And then we wrote again.. and he was very happy.. but then I realized, that he has changed, and that I had changed.. he has got a girlfriend and I .. I was still alone.. So I stopped writing back. 1 week, 2 weeks, and so on.. In his last message he told me, that on the day I wrote him back, he had a feeling that noone ever on earth has got and that he will delete my number and wont write me anymore..
I thought that I got over him.. Sometimes I wish that he would hold me in his arms and tells me that everything gonna be ok.. and on the oter days I hate him for making me hate him.. Why can't I get over him?? What happens to me??