I seem to have a problem. I can't really talk about my feelings out loud... Online or through text, or even in letters I'm perfectly fine at it, very good with my words even. But in person I just cannot say what I'm feeling. I also have a problem being intimate with people. Even kissing I have a hard time doing. I'm not sure if this is due to me not being very experienced in the area, or if it's an underlying self esteem issue or what. But it's really taken a toll on my relationships and friendships. A few relationships have ended because I can't be intimate, and the other person needed me to be. I just don't get it.
I do have a self esteem problem, but I never thought it was this bad, which is why it's hard for me to believe my problem is 100% due to my low self esteem. I can talk through text all I want about intimate things, but on the phone or in person I just can't. I think it's because in person my mood is more light and joking, whereas through text I can get in a more serious mood. This especially happens with the person I'm interested in right now, because I can't help but feel happy and in such a light mood around them. But when I text them I get way serious about things. And I definitely want to become intimate with someone and be able to speak my feelings, but I don't know how. Does anyone have any advice??