Counseling might be a good option -- ask questions, get answers, without all the drama. They can help put you in touch with people who can offer support, so you won't be facing yourself alone -- which can be a scary prospect sometimes.
Hallucinogens and other drugs can alter the way the brain works... therapy can help instill new coping skills so you can re-alter the brain for the better.
Give it a try, what's the worse that can happen? End up right back where you are?
"The weakest soul, knowing its own weakness, and believing this truth that strength can only be developed by effort and practice, will, thus believing, at once begin to exert itself, and, adding effort to effort, patience to patience, and strength to strength, will never cease to develop, and will at last grow divinely strong."
- James Allen