i dont know what to do anymore. my boyfriend and i broke up a few weeks ago... but i dont know how to deal with this anymore. i dont think he loves me anymore. even when we were broken up, he used to say i love you on the phone all the time, and call me baby... (we didnt break up for good... we broke up temporarily and we were just trying to get our shit together so we could grow up and move out and get our own thing goin on)... but now for some reason he just stopped saying it. i havent seen him in over a week now. and ive never not seen him for that long. we were going out for almost 2 years.
i dont know what im going to do anymore. no one wants to hang out with me because all i can do is sit and think about him. ive been with other ppl before, but no one has ever made me feel the way he makes me feel. he is everything i could ever want in a person and he makes me laugh which is so hard to do. hes the only person i could ever imagine having a future with.
i feel so hopeless. i feel like hes moving on, and i hate it. i want him to be happy... but i dont know if its with me... and all i can do is sit here and cry. i dont want anyone else but him. i know that if he is truly gone, i wont find another person. because before i met him, i said to myself that i would be fine being single, because im just not gonna settle for a half assed man like i used to... and when i was with him, even though we fought sometimes, i never felt like i was settling.
i dont know how to deal with this. im losing everything. and i dont think i want to go on anymore.