This is a long story... make time to read it.... if you just scan through it... you wont get a full understanding!
Lets begin..... I started off in a relationship with a guy, lets say his name is "Bob". Me and "Bob" were together for about a year and a half... It was a very crazy relationship. I think the only reason we stayed together for so long is because we were just so used to being together. And i did love him... but over time..... the love faded.... anyway. One day we broke up... and the next day I ran into an old friend from high school, lets call him "Joe". So me and "Joe" started talking for about a week. Then I decided to take it to the next level... So, we had sex. I was only with him, because I wasnt used to being alone, and i just basically wanted to **** him.... I know that makes me sound bad,... but oh well... So, I can tell that hes into me, and wants more then just sex. We have a few convos about it, and I basically keep turnin him down, tellin him i didnt wanna be in another relationship. But overtime, I started to have more feelings for him. So i decided to make it official, which is what he kept tellin me he wanted. So, everything is going fine... We are together now for about 4 months, and he tells me he loves me... So i am like whoa! I didnt know what to say, I kinda blew it off... then about 2 months later, i felt like i was in love with him, so i told him... and we were sooo happy.... Then... he was having some problems...and had to move back to California. I said ok... Do what you gotta do.. And come back in a few months. So he goes to Cali... takes care of his business.. And gets a pretty good job.... He comes to see me... every other week,... and i even drive to Cali every month to see him....... So, right about now I am loving this relationship... we have so much fun together, and i dont ever wanna be without him..... all the while, he's tellin me the same thing. ( i know your reading this, thinking, "damn i wish she'd get to the point"... lol) ok... so about 3 weeks before we break up, i notice that he doesnt call me as much, and hes more distant then usual... i try to talk to him, to see whats wrong... and he always says nothin.... All the while, I am extremely depressed because i know that our relationship is going down hill, and i have no clue why!...... so i started to prepare myself for the heartbreak... i meet a few new ppl, mainly men... and one day i get sick... VERY SICK! and everyone i know calls me, and "Joe" calls me like a day later, and shows no concern for me at all... I am destraught! He blows me off,... like i am worthless. So i wait a while, and think about what had just happened. I call him back and tell him we need to talk... i tell him how i feel like he doesnt care about me anymore, like how he shows no concern for me, and then i ask him... "do you want to be with me" and of course he says "YES", and i am soooo mad, because i know this is a fat ass lie! so we talk for a minute more,.... then all of a sudden he comes out and tells me, "you know what.... your right, I dont wanna be with you no more"! and i am shocked... this was two days ago... i talked to him yesterday, and i tried to control my anger.... i tried to be nice... he told me he wanted us to be friends.... and i blew up... i cussed him out, and told him anything i could to make him feel as wothless as he made me feel..... and then.... he went OFF! he told me he didnt ever love me, and that he was having sex with someone else the whole time! ( what sucks, is that i dont really know if he meant this, or he was just talkin out of anger, bcuz thats what i had done).... so we hang up... and later on that day... i am feelin bad about the things i said out of anger, because none of it was true... so i called him and apologized.. which made me feel better, bcuz i dont think acting childish accomplishes anything. so now,.... i am lost... i am really stressed, depressed, and god know what else..... so.......... if you read the whole thing... then good job! now all you have to do is reply and tell me how crazy i am!