Hi guys!
I'm a first-year Uni student and first met my boyfriend (let's call him Ben) the week after freshers. He had a girlfriend who lives in New Zealand at the time (he'd taken a gap year there)
who he was deeply in love with, and he cheated on her by sleeping with me several times within the first month of uni (Typical uni lifestyle..)
After going on holiday with her in November I became really good friends with him, and, along with five other people, we signed a contract together for a house next year. However, he and his girlfriend decided to break up as, because she lives so far away, they won't see each other for at least a year... and so after christmas, Ben told me he really liked me as more than a friend, and as i've always had feelings for him, we started dating, and have now been going out for four months.
However, I stupidly read his facebook messages when drunk and found many messages from him and his ex saying about how much they were still in love, dating all the way to march (when i'd been going out with him for two months), and they still frequently skype/phone/send letters. I know he still cares loads for her, and i worry that he still loves her and is simply 'passing time' with me until he sees her next. I've brought it up with him but it's led to several arguments, as he claims they are simply just friends. Obviously, he means a lot to me as we've been great friends as well as a couple... although i'm not sure if i actually love him or not.
Also, he is still listed as "single" on facebook. as you can probably tell, i'm useless at expressing my feelings to him. The main problemo is the fact i'm living with him next year no matter what, arghh!
Any advice?!
Thanks
xxx