I'm confused and really need the advice of the forum. I'm in love with 2 men and for different reasons. I fell in love with Donnie shortly after my breakup with Bill. At first I thought my feelings for Donnie was based on the rebound factor because when Bill dumped me I was torn, cried for days and had nowhere to go. Donnie is the cousin of a good friend (female) of mine who took me in when Bill kicked me out after accusing of me cheating, which I did not do.
Bill and Donnie are totally different types of guys. Bill is controlling and jealous and puts me down at times making me cry. Even when we have a good time out when we return home he starts calling me names and accusing me of ignoring him. The problem is Bill can also be so sweet and sensitive. Bill is also very financially secure and yes, that does make me feel safe. He has several houses, vacation homes, boats, bikes, etc. I admit I like these things. Bill is many years older than me and I really never had a problem with the age difference. He is 55 and I'm 32. Last week Bill and I talked and he promised to change his controlling behavior. We held each other and both cried, it felt so good to be back in his arms and back at the house I called home for 2 years. So I moved back in with Bill. However, I can't get Donnie out of my mind, I love him so dearly and I knew I hurt him when I returned to Bill. I knew Donnie for 6 months prior to our brief relationship and I always was attracted to him from the moment we met. I swear I feel in love with him on first sight. He is so opposite of Bill being sweet, complimentary, trusting, funny and passionate. We had so much fun during our brief time together, we could not keep our hands of each other. Donnie does okay financially (he owns a small business) but nowhere near Bill. Donnie is 40 and very attractive and he does flirt with other women. Still, he is all I think about and want to be with him so much. I'm still not sure if the feelings for Donnie were based on the rebound but after returning to Bill I eager to see Donnie. My friends tell me Bill will only return to his controlling ways and my friend (Donnie's cousin) said I probably blew the love of my life by returning to Bill. I just don't know what to do.