I have been asking myself if I deserve to be called a f’ing b#tch by my fiancée. It all started when I had to pick him up from work two nights ago and somehow I dozed off on the sofa and was 30mins late getting there. He left work and I spent another 30mins driving around looking for him. I was really panicking as it was late, dark and lightening outside with a bit of showers. When I finally found him walking on the side of the road the first thing he says to me is “you fcuking b#tch” then threw his lunch bag into the car. I was very upset by this as I am not sure if I even deserve to be called such a vile word by the man that supposedly loves and respects me. He wasn’t talking to me and ignored me for the past day or so. Tonight, I tried to talk to him but he wasn’t very responsive. I told him that I didn’t like him calling me such hurtful things. He then said I deserved it given the circumstances. After I heard that I nearly burst out crying again as I never thought he’ll say I deserve such harsh words. I guess part of me wish he had apologize and tell me he said it in anger.
We’ve been together for 6.5 years, engaged for 1 and living together for 2 years and it’s very hurtful to hear him say such harsh words towards me. I am starting to realize maybe this is a blessing in a way for me to see another side of him. Since living together he has not done a single load of laundry of my clothes, never help out with the household chores, etc. It’s gotten so bad that I still do the chores when I am sick. Nobody is there to cook me a meal or do the dishes if you’ve got a horrible cold. When I tell him I want him to help out he says he works hard while I don’t work. I’ve been unemployed for the past 4 months and when I was working his excuse was “I bring home more money than you and I actually work at work vs you”. When he says these things it’s very demeaning of me and my self worth. ‘sigh’ this is just the tip of the iceberg as to some of the hurtful words he’s said to me. I used to just brush it off say “meh it’s ok” but somehow this latest bit is hard to brush under the rug. I just never thought I’ll be called a “fcuking b#tch” by the man I love for such a trivial mistake on my part.
Thanks for reading. I’ve been very lonely with almost nowhere to turn to.