Hi there!
I’m sort of a nerd, spending a lot of time playing games online. About a year ago I ran into a fellow nerd who happened to be a girl. We became friends and started chatting both inside these games but also through emails and instant messaging.
However, in the past couple of months our chats have really intensified to a point where I’d say I spend more time chatting away at my computer than I do anything else. I find myself head over heels in love with this girl; I absolutely cannot get her out of my head no matter what I try. She sweet, funny, intelligent, beautiful and the chemistry between us is simply amazing, different from anything I have ever experienced with another girl, and from our talks I can tell it’s obvious that she has feelings for me as well.
She grew up in China but now lives in London and I’m from Denmark so there’s quite some distance between us. Now talking to her and knowing she’s so far away is leaving me feeling terrible to a point where I feel sick because of it. My stomach hurts like I’m hungry but I can hardly eat and I feel my eyes watering whenever I think of her which is, like I said, pretty much all the time.
Now I know I’m going to visit her but I don’t know what to do. I could tell her exactly how I feel but I fear I might come on too strong. Also the thought of maintaining a long distance relationship like this seems so extremely hard. However, plane tickets are easily affordable with a part time job and travel time is only about 2 hours.
I would move to London in a second if I could but as it stands I’ve applied and hoping to be accepted by a Danish university where I will be studying for up to 5 years, no less than 2 years. I have thought about turning down the university if I get in and try to look for an education I can apply for in London but at the same time I’m thinking love is making me blind and this could turn out to be a major mistake.
I think my head is about to explode.
Thank you for taking time to read about my predicament. I’m keen on hearing if any of you have anything to say that could help me. If not, at least I got to vent my feelings
Claus