I guess this is it...
Now I know I can't trust anything my girlfriend says anymore. After I found out about her secret affairs I've been keeping an eye on her doings, I wasn't just going to take her word for it. Of course she thinks I'm completely stupid and only check the browsing history so she boldly lies without any hesitation. Today I asked her if she's tried to contact him and she said no, that she hasn't even thought about him. Well after she went to bed I wanted to see for myself and wouldn't you have there was an email saying she had tried to call him and that they had texted.
Right now I'm just so furious, why does she think she has the right to do this?
I'm just really pondering how I should go about this now, trying to not do things in anger. Should I wait just a little longer before taking any further action and see where these discussions go or just take immediate action? The thing is I still really think she wants to fix things with me, problem is she also wants to keep the cake and it eat it. However I don't think I can ever trust her again no matter what happens.
I just have 2 problems...
First is the thing that we have shared so much these years. We work at the same place, have the same social circles, have a mortgage together, an apartment together and a cat together. Secondly I still have immensely strong feelings for her and the thought of no contact right now doesn't feel doable. I'm so strung out emotionally right now that it's a struggle to even get to work and back. Doing anything bigger than that is really hard, let alone this whole thing.